Hello God, It’s Me Again! Are You There?

Lord, are you listening?  I wake up, and then I live my day in a rush; by the time I go to bed, I honestly don’t know who I am, or what the point is.  Sometimes when I talk to you, I feel like I’m talking to myself, but I try imagining you are actually listening to me anyway.  How come I don’t always hear your voice?  If you’re always with me, then why do I feel so alone and hopeless?  Am I a lost cause, Father?  Should I just call it quits and give up?

And then the letter came; the letter that I opened without paying attention to the fact that it was sent to me by accident.  The address was the same as mine, but in a different state.  I do believe, though, that somehow it was meant for me after all. 

Dear friend (because I feel that you must think I am your enemy!),

I have missed you.  I keep writing letters to you, but I haven’t heard anything back.  I’ve tried calling, but your number has been disconnected.  I’m not sure if you even know how hard I’m trying to get a hold of you.  Could you take a moment out of your busy day to drop me a note or give me a call and let me know?  It’s so frustrating when you’re desperately trying to get a hold of someone so special and dear to your heart, but you just can’t get through to them.  Look, I love you very much and think about you all of the time, but I don’t want to be pushy or keep bugging you if I’m no longer wanted in your life.  Just know, my friend, that whenever you really decide that you want me, I’m here for you.  I’m thinking of you, and missing you more than you can possibly know, even if you have forgotten all about me.  You might have somehow misunderstood my intentions last time we talked; quite honestly, I think you were so busy talking that you couldn’t hear what I was saying.  Can we give it another try, and this time, tune in and listen with your heart so that you don’t misjudge me, okay?  Peace?  I love you, and I hope to hear from you soon.

All of my love forever,

Your Best Friend Since Childhood…and don’t ever forget it!

Lord, I want to say that I get it.  You are speaking to me, but I’m disconnected…not listening.  I’m too busy talking and complaining and worrying about life’s obstacles that are being thrown my way.  You must be pretty frustrated because you love me so much, and here I’m always thinking you really don’t care, and that you don’t listen, when in fact, you do.  You won’t force yourself on me, but you want to let me know that no matter what I do, even when I completely forget about you, you are here for me.

Father, I’ve grossly misunderstood because I thought I was listening, or maybe I expected to hear an audible voice break the silence; I don’t know.  You’ve been with me since childhood?  Oh Lord, I should be the one asking you if we can give it another try; but you’re so loving and compassionate, you are happy to receive me just the same!  I left, believing I could do it on my own.  Here I am, Lord; and this time, I’m prepared to tune in and listen, and I am ready to give up and let you do it for me.  In fact, every time I asked you if I should just give up, you were saying, “Yes!  Surrender yourself to me!” 

My dear Father, I have been a dishonorable child, and have insulted your integrity.  With a humble and convicted heart, I am coming home!  

(I wanted to state that this is not a true story.  The Lord spoke this to my heart.  It is true for many of us from time to time, and I believe the Lord just wants people to know that He is there, and He is hearing your prayers.  We must have faith regardless of our circumstances, and regardless of how hard it is going to be to hear His voice from time to time.  God bless you!)

©2012, by Lyn Leahz


Luke 15:11-32

New King James Version (NKJV)

The Parable of the Lost Son

11 Then He said: “A certain man had two sons. 12 And the younger of them said to his father, ‘Father, give me the portion of goods that falls to me.’ So he divided to them his livelihood. 13 And not many days after, the younger son gathered all together, journeyed to a far country, and there wasted his possessions with prodigal living. 14 But when he had spent all, there arose a severe famine in that land, and he began to be in want. 15 Then he went and joined himself to a citizen of that country, and he sent him into his fields to feed swine. 16 And he would gladly have filled his stomach with the pods that the swine ate, and no one gave him anything.

17 “But when he came to himself, he said, ‘How many of my father’s hired servants have bread enough and to spare, and I perish with hunger! 18 I will arise and go to my father, and will say to him, “Father, I have sinned against heaven and before you, 19 and I am no longer worthy to be called your son. Make me like one of your hired servants.”’

20 “And he arose and came to his father. But when he was still a great way off, his father saw him and had compassion, and ran and fell on his neck and kissed him. 21 And the son said to him, ‘Father, I have sinned against heaven and in your sight, and am no longer worthy to be called your son.’

22 “But the father said to his servants, ‘Bring[a] out the best robe and put it on him, and put a ring on his hand and sandals on his feet. 23 And bring the fatted calf here and kill it, and let us eat and be merry; 24 for this my son was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.’ And they began to be merry.

25 “Now his older son was in the field. And as he came and drew near to the house, he heard music and dancing. 26 So he called one of the servants and asked what these things meant. 27 And he said to him, ‘Your brother has come, and because he has received him safe and sound, your father has killed the fatted calf.’

28 “But he was angry and would not go in. Therefore his father came out and pleaded with him. 29 So he answered and said to his father, ‘Lo, these many years I have been serving you; I never transgressed your commandment at any time; and yet you never gave me a young goat, that I might make merry with my friends. 30 But as soon as this son of yours came, who has devoured your livelihood with harlots, you killed the fatted calf for him.’

31 “And he said to him, ‘Son, you are always with me, and all that I have is yours. 32 It was right that we should make merry and be glad, for your brother was dead and is alive again, and was lost and is found.’”


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15 replies

  1. Elijah found out that when the Lord spoke it was like whisper in a gentle breeze. So listening for His voice demands discipline and patience.

    I submit a good piece from Fr. Ron Rolheiser:on discernment or listening to God’s voice.

    In Paradox There Is Virtue


    There are a number of old axioms that suggest that virtue and truth lie in the middle, between the two extremes. This was called the “golden mean” and expressed in phrases such as “In medio stat virtus” and “Aurea mediocritas”.

    But its meaning can easily be misunderstood and suggest that virtue and truth are found in the lowest common denominator, in mediocrity. Indeed that’s the literal translation of aurea mediocritas, golden mediocrity.

    What these axioms actually point to however is not some mediocrity that tries to avoid the raw edges of the two extremes by staking out some emaciated center. Rather they tell us that virtue and truth lie in paradox, in carrying the truth of both sides and living inside the tension of that ambiguity. Virtue and truth are not found by choosing “either/or” or in opting for some insipid middle that hasn’t the salt to offend either side. Virtue and truth lie in living out “‘both/and”, namely, in carrying and balancing out the truth that is contained in both extremes.

    And nowhere is this truer than in religious discernment, that is, in the question of how we recognize God’s voice in our lives. Does God speak in whispers or in thunder? Does God speak in pain or in blessing? Does God call us out of this world or more deeply into it? Does God call us through what is comfortable and familiar or does God call us into foreign lands? Does God disturb or soothe us? Is God recognized in miracles or in helplessness? Does God speak through the rich or through the poor, through the educated or the uneducated? Does God’s voice frighten us or rid us of fear? Is God’s voice heard more through piety or iconoclasm? Does God ask us to renounce the pleasures of this world or does God ask us to enjoy them

    God’s voice is in all of these things. It is heard in paradox:

    · The voice of God is recognized both in whispers and soft tones, even as it is recognized in thunder and storm. God spoke to Elijah in a soft breeze, but to Pharaoh through the plagues.

    · The voice of God is recognized wherever one sees life, joy, health, color, and humor, even as it is recognized wherever one sees dying, suffering, poverty, and a beaten-down spirit. God is equally present on Good Friday and Easter Sunday.

    · The voice of God is recognized in what calls us to what’s higher, to what sets us apart, to what invites us to holiness, even as it calls us to humility, invites us to submerge our individuality into humanity, and rejects everything that denigrates our humanity. The voice of God calls us out of what’s purely human even as it invites us to humbly take our place within humanity.

    · The voice of God is recognized in what appears in our lives as “foreign”, as other, as “stranger”, even as it is recognized in the voice that is most deeply familiar and which beckons us home. God’s voice takes us beyond any language we know even as we recognize in it most deeply our mother tongue.

    · The voice of God is the one that most challenges us, even as it the only voice that ultimately soothes and comforts us. God’s voice does disturb the comforted and comfort the disturbed, but it also comforts the comforted and disturbs the disturbed.

    · The voice of God enters our lives as the greatest of all powers, even as it forever lies in vulnerability, like a helpless baby in the straw. God’s voice creates the cosmos and keeps it in existence, even as it lies in our world powerless as an infant.

    · The voice of God is heard in privileged way in the poor, even as it beckons us through the voice of the artist and the intellectual. God is in the poor, even as the artist and intellectual help reveal the transcendental properties of God.

    · The voice of God invites us to live beyond all fear, even as it inspires holy fear. When God appears in human history, invariably the first words are: “Do not be afraid!” God’s presence is meant to eradicate all fear, even as it invites us to live in “holy fear”, in a reverence and chastity that help create a world within which no one needs to fear anything.

    · The voice of is recognized inside the gifts of the Holy Spirit, even as it invites us never to deny the complexities of our world and our own lives.

    · The voice of God is always heard wherever there is genuine enjoyment and gratitude, even as it asks us to deny ourselves, die to ourselves, and relativize all the things of this world.

    Of course to accept this is also to accept living with ambiguity, complexity, unknowing, and a whole lot of patience. God’s voice will then no longer be as clear as our fundamentalist instinct would like, but it will be free both to soothe and challenge us as never before.

    Good old Luke, my favourite, had it right in Chapter 15, first the parable of the Lost Sheep, then the Lost Coin and finally The Lost Son.

    From my own experience, I’ve found that a prayer life tends to put me more in touch with the Lord, especially as, Lyn you know I’m Catholic, and I’m able to receive Him twice a day in Holy Communion. So I can get a double Elijah everyday…LOL!

    Wishing you all the Graces God can provide,


    • Thank you brother David for your comment. Yes, yes…hearing the Lord depends on many things. The Lord gave me this last night..it is made up, however, so true for so many people out there in the world. This is not about me, but about what all of us from time to time go through..and the desire of the Lord to let people know that He is there, and He is listening. God bless you.

  2. Very beautiful post lynn, with great compassion and love from within your heart! You are a blessing in what you write…never stop sharing!

  3. Your gift of writing is so profound!! Really enjoyed reading this Lyn…many, many blessings to you…Robin

  4. No, it’s a made up story to convey God’s love…He spoke it to my heart tonight, as He usually does..just gives me something out of the blue..and then I obey Him and write it. Some of the stuff I write has things mixed in that are true. For instance, in my story excerpts, the one titled, “Conversation With God” is a real conversation I had with God the summer of 2011, a few different days/nights…however, I made it my character Walter, and of course added his personality into it..but the actual conversation was one I had. You’ll have to check it out sometime. Made up or real, they’re all given to me by the Lord for someone out there to hear…I’m sure He has that someone in mind… could be you, someone else…many…I never know. He speaks it, and I write it. What an amazing God! Happy to work for Him reaching those He loves!

  5. Did this happen to you personally? If so, I’m amazed!! What a letter to recieve!! Thats amazing! Oh wow, how I needed to hear those words also! Thanks for sharing.

"If My people who are called by My name will humble themselves, and pray and seek My face, and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin and heal their land." 2 Chronicles 7:14 God's call to the world! Are you ready?

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